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& everytime i thought i was fine, it just keep stumbling down again.


the cold the chill the distance.
everything everything.
yes, its all gone.
i can only reminisence.
the roller coaster rides.
too much ups and downs is just draining me.
and i have started to lose myself in the ride.
but all i need now is to remind myself.
i cant be distracted anymore.
i need to set the priorities right.
no matter how deep the cut is,
somehow it will still heals.
smile cos it happen somehow.
and also i must learn to appreciates wad im given.





fren says im too stress which result in me eating way too much.
i tink so too and i guess im hurting my poor gastrics.
cos its either i eat alot or i don eat at all.
it just goes with the moods im havin for that day
and i know very well it doesnt do me any good!


i tink i need the beach to keep me sane.
i wan to stay there for as long as possible
the serenity the calm the sea.
just the right things to keep me sane.







im alil lost as to what the future holds
the place i am at.
doesnt makes me a smart person cos i have dreams.
dreams areonly dreams.
i will only the smart person when i can make this dreams come true!
& if you dont know me now,i doubt you ever will.


seriously,the way im acting currently is so redundent.
or rather NO SENSE!
nothing else matters for im the only one taking it seriously.
it takes two hands to clap.
my hands are tired already luhs!(pun intended)











i read them again
and it brought smiles for that moment.
and i went to sleep.
wake up its another day(:
if only anyone understand wad im trying to say!
;well,everything is different now but i guess its okay.


i really missed the times.
if only things didnt turn out this way.
chest aches,back aches, head aches!
so many aches.
i so wanna slp already luhs!!
not enuff not enuff not enuff of slp luhs!):










& one day one fine day,we will all see the light as to how things happen.
but for now im still confused luhs):
& now we all know, weakness shown for it never changes.


had a really bad bad day.
foul mood bad mood.
nobody deserves my cold treatment when its all about myself.
cant seems to find ways to vent them out.
or rather i did during driving.
had a slight bump on the head.
all thanks to that bus!
that split seconds i swear i could have just burst out crying.
but i didnt.
instructor was fierce and i get scoldings for that whole 100mins.
what a day.
i felt like giving it all up but then again,wheres the zest and enthusiasm i had?
i shouldnt and i cannot give up luhs!
but im really scared luhs.
NVM NVM!
things will get better in time.
more practices.!(:














time is the answers to everything.
i have been thru much more.
this aint breaking me down!
i will survive!(:
& yes, im sick AGAIN

for the past few weeks of attachment,
i have been getting sick.
have been taking way too many MC-s.
why are all the virus in my body.
i hate it.
from high fever to gastrics to food posioning to cramps
now wads with me again.
flu sore throat cough and nauseous.
i wonder wads really wrong with me.
i hate medications for they make me drowsy.
they make me feel so weak.
had antibotics and now i feel like vomitting.
flu pills makes me sleepy
i wished i can jus stay home to slp instead of stayin here in the office.
havin my colleague callin and telling me she will be late.
and i gotta create the XBRL file again for client.
):
i wan some pamperings luhs!!!!!):



Once upon a time there lived a girl. She slept in a lovely little cottage made of gingerbread and candy. She was always asleep. One morning she woke up, and the candy had mold on it. Her father blew her a kiss and the house fell down. She realized she was lost. She found herself walking down a crowded street, but the people were made of paper, like paper dolls. She blew everyone a kiss goodbye, and watched as they blew away.
SPANK KISS and GOODBYES!(:


im being so random luhs!
i cant get to sleep!
and im singing like a MAN now.
WAHAHAHS!
sings * WHEREEVER YOU WILL GOOOOOO*
and i so hate my hair now!
grow grow grow!
BLACK BLACK BLACK!
LONG LONG LONG!
on a sidenote,my dress is finally arriving soon soon
anticipating!better not be a disappointment.
and now i regret not getting my elmo jacket!!BOOHOO!):











i wished i could tell you but the words got stuck.
this hanging nowhere feeling aint making me feel good.
i don wanna ignore neither do i wan to avoid.
but i just dono where to start.
guess time is the factor for us to realise everything.
no rush no hurry. its still a long journey.
be happy and i will be happy too
thanks for everything!(:
& im so bored now!
theres nothing i can do luhs.
loaded some songs into my itouch.
but it has been floodin with cheena songs luhs.
i wan more english songs.
i put my phone in the room
set it to ringin mode but i doubt it will ring at all!):
sms buddy where are you luhs?
imu can?!





/editted.
im happy again!(:
my fone rang!!!
sms buddy texted me!!whees!(:
& many a time i realised, the words just got stuck.

sometimes i wonder if i know way too much.
maybe i dont really know alot ,
but the amount of things i know is enough to make me think quite alot.

sometimes i din voice out doesnt mean it doesnt bothers me.
all i wanna is things to be simpler,happier.

sometimes,sometimes,sometimes.
sometimes i jus wanna slp thru the whole day long.
letting the time pass me by.
pat me to slp,and stay by side.
there are so many things i wanna do luhs.
4 more weeks to the end of IAP
i so wanna tan gym swim!
i no longer fancy shopping sprees.
but jus wanna lose loads of fats!

i feel like e meatball!
*pouts*
& fairytale always vanished into thin air when the clock strikes twelve.


the sea breeze,the beach,the fireworks,the stars.
just the perfect spot the perfect timing.
everything jus seems so perfect.
but everything has to come to a full stop
just like how fireworks only stays in the sky for that split seconds.


these few days i seems to be battling against myself against my emotions.
i guess its just me that making everythings seems so tiring.
my mood swings like nobody business. high low high low
so fast till i cant grasp the time to just allow myself to breathe rite.
every night i just toss and turn on bed hoping that my mind will just rest.
but its just aint the case for me now. i take some time before i slumber into my lala land.
and the nxt day i wake up feeling uber grouchy.
i dont like this feeling at all.

i will be fine soon soon soon.
cos attachment is ending (:
4 more weeks!


/PS: i hate my hair now!!):
i wan back my long long fringe to cover my right eyes!!):








the words you breathed in my ears.
simple words that makes me happy from deep within.
i trust wad u say and i believe you do.
there nth you have to be apologetic towards.
you alway managed to bring a smile to me.
it has been lingering for a long time.
so long till i forget when i started.
for i have been avoiding it.
at least for now im brave enuff to face the reality.
the truth that i care alot abt you.
seeing you happy is the most precious gift i can ever received from you.
nothing changes everything remains the same
but i believe you will always be here and so will i,
just stayin by your side making sure youre fine.

my bittersweet addiction.3/<
everytime i try to speak the words get stuck.
trust me its just a matter of time.











zxd mine(:
im bored im bored im bored im bored
i guess im really bored at home.
im supposed to be at work typing ACRA files but i didnt!
i woke up with stupid cramps and dizzy spells and head back to bed.
received sms-es replied and shortly as i slowly slumber back into my lala land.
i heard construction works noise ! gosh that spoils my slping mode luhs.
went to the doc just to get the stupid MC and it cost me thirty three buckeroos.
somemore the doc says its very good for cramps!HAHAHS!
online-ed till now.

and becos im bored.
i tried to cook!
yes COOK! but it was a failed attempt i would say.
mummy dearest forgot to tell me tt i have to put MSG and salt into the rice when im cookin it.
the whole result turn out bland and i throw the whole bowl of fried rice away.
cravings for ice cream but guess my sister finished them.
cooking is tiring luhs. i gave up cooking when my mum ask me to cook again for dinner.
i chosed take-aways now but i really missed her cookings.


cooking makes me tired and i started to laze around but shortly later.
i got bored once more.!!!!!!!
this time round i chose to cut my own hair.
okay not really my hair but trim the split ends luhs.
because this head of hair i got is growing way slower than i thought .
and i mean real slowly!! i wan to have long nice nice hair luhs!
i still rmb i told evon i want to buy hair growth shampoo.
she asked me to go yunnam!-.-


on a side note,im going steamyboaty tml after work.
meet ups with giodarnians
so miss them much.










im really happy for you evon darling.
no matter what happen,anything changes.
i wil always be there for you.
no matter how tough, i will still open the umbrella to shelter you and estee!(:
cos gd things come in threes.
love you two most aplenty




*promise me you wont and you cannot!
this ordeal is taking it toil.


everything i wished to breathe out the gentlest words,it just gt stuck.
jus how long later can i be able to bring forth to you the feelings within.
this time the table has changed.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PRINCESS EVON!(:
much loves and im sure so going to treat u like my lil princess later on!(:
i love you much.
rmb our nxt taiwan trip.
shopping shopping gossiping gossiping and heart to heart talks.
i simply love u darling!(:

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