Sunday, June 29, 2008
&maybe its just me,couldnt you believe.
had my first driving lesson today!
uber coolness with nice instructor.
more to come. i swear i wanna be on the driver seat in no time.
its amazing how things turned out to be.
i like it this way.
one day i will conquer them all.
trust me show me some faith.
saw the pic seen the nick.
if whats interpreted right.
i wished you well.
10:22 PM
Sunday, June 22, 2008
& if my paper heart is yours to keep,tell me what you gonna do about it.
have you ever wondered how humans are such ironical animal.
we always seems to be blaming the whole damm world for almost EVERYTHING.
but when we lose the things we alway wanted, the blames just gradually turns into REGRETS.
i knew it for sure, it wasnt my insecuritites neither the way people perceived how i tink .
it was ME. solely just me and nothing else.
ego aside for i have long swept mine down the long kang a year back.
it was the fact that when i see beautiful smiles,glowing happiness.
and i realised im stuck within myself.
always trying my best to back out cos i see myself in this world as the biggest mistake.
i wished i could walk out of this standpoint but i need assurance at least just alittle.
to at least makes me feel better.
but frequent reminders have been pulling me back to the back street alley.
its so dark in there not even a torch could do the trick.
i knew it very well i cant afford to make another mistake.
dont even know to whom can i make my feelings known.
i cant string out the most suitable string of words to bring out the true blue feelings.
within the smiles the laughters,insecurities fold in.
many a time i thought i was acertain this is the outcome which i wan
but at times i just got pull away from it.
its not that it has been scaled down to big zero,
in fact, you have slowly gaining the points
so slowly i lost track of the scores now.
and i know it very well,
miss the ride and it will never comes back again,
hopes,ive put them all down.
cos i know im afraid.
maybe this is the best solution.
stay as it is until one fine day.
regrets fold in again and moving on is another lessons to be attended.
but at least to me i alway believe some things will stay if i hold it tight.
let it go,skip a beat or two..
it will just be flown away and never be back.
only happy moments stays on.
what in the world am i doing?
what answers should i give myself.
the story just doesnt have a definate ending anymore.
8:53 PM
Thursday, June 19, 2008
everyday passes me by like bullet train
theres no way i can actually stop and sit down and think ahead.
but the moment i start to think ahead.
i get scared cos my future seems like in a mess.
everything seems to be a blur for me.
im pretty much messed up currently.
9:55 PM
Friday, June 13, 2008
i have jus completed my third week of attachment,
of which i took 2 days mc during the third week.
fell ill suddenly with a bombing 39 degrees fever.
the feeling was madness but the concerns were warming.
but now i cant wait to finish my attachment and go back sch to study luhs.
i so wanna go to lectures and tutorials.
or rather sleeping in lectures luhs!!!LOLS.
oh ya ,i tink i shud jus close down my blog luhs.
it seems like im not updatin at all.
not tt i don have anything to update but rather..
i dono how to string them up into words luhs.
so forget it luhs.
haahs!
till then pple..
and YES. since i was sick.i slept for 24 hrs luhs!!!WAHAHHAHAHS!(:
5:30 PM