after 1pm today i will have completed my first week of attachment.
one word to describe- BORING
din even noe why am i doin accounts now when im an engine student.
but wadever it is.. 11 more weeks and im off for the holiday.
but on a side note. im only workin from 9 to 5
thats not all thou.
my incharge come in to work at 945 or latest 10.
so im left to rot from 9 to 10.
and the clasic thing that she said to me was: when u reach,just on the lappie to surf the net.
im like WAD?but owell..this has been my routine for almost a week.
gotta TAHAN!!!






this years bday falls on the attachment day.
its kinda boring. and i don anticipate it anymore.
owell. its just another year im going older.
but its the darlings who make an effort to celebrate for me that makes me happy.













a year ago i tot i was the happiest girl
a year later someone was missing but i believe i wil still be that happy girl!(:
currently have been brain-dead luhs

i just cant find any inspirations to write my reports luhs.

am on my way to the end of my FYP luhs.

thats how glad i am.VERY indeed.

im glad that thru out this 12 weeks

i gained new frens(:

never to be forgotten.

i will be off for my IAP

macpherson is gonna be my 2nd home!

wonder how things will go in that company.

pray jus pray.











on a sidenote.

can i have surprises this year pretty please DARLINGs(:





alright im really dead beat.

byes earthlings.

hit the hay and rush my report and aes tml!

and say BYEBYE to FYP!(:
time to be awoken from the long lost dream.

guess its really time to wake up from the dream long lost luhs.
someone was talking to me makin all the words that i once knew made sense.
somehow i really think i should really really wake up luhs.
i had enough of grievings enough of self reproaching.
its time for a change cos human are brought up in this way.
we are brought up in a way since we were babies.
we always choose to look for nicer and beautiful things that makes us smile make us happy
its a cycle and a lesson learnt since young luhs.
if it hurts,if it hurts so bad that we cant live our life properly.
LET GO
two words comprising of five letters.
looks simple yet it takes alot of courage to adhere to it.
but i guess keep harbouring on the once shared memories,
yet this time around its only been held by me myself.
its not goin to make sense.
NOT AT ALL
afterall it always takes TWO hands to clap.
i knew forgettin will never be the solution cos its never easy to do so
and its never in one's dictionary to forget things(mine especially)
what i can do now is just to let go of the things dear to me once.
put them aside since they make me sad.
move on chin up and live life happily.










i guess its time i wake up from being a wilful daughter alr.
the many times my mother felt helpless in helping me.
yet seeks solution but due to my stubborness and wilfulness.
i always chose to shut her out of my world,
doing things that hurt her.it has been for long and to atone to the things i did.
it wil take a lifetime.
but im willing to try and fulfil the role of an elder daughter.
somethings are just surfacing so fast that i find it hard to grasp.
as much as i convince myself that everything is just part and parcel of life.
at times i still chose to feign ignorance in the things that are happening.
i miss the innocent old past but somehow everything just gotta be left behind as footprints.
i dono why am i whining here when i noe very well i shud accept it luhs.
i look back and realised i had always been living jus contented.
its never fufillin at all for i always chose to regret it in the aftermaths.
theres nothing wrong with being just contented.
but its smth very wrong when u do things which u will regret in the end.
i learnt alot from the past lesson.
something i wished i had the chance to make up for it.
but yaps.
its over and at times i really wonder why do i have to use mockeries to atone to the pain i always face.


i never know i gotta learn expensive lessons to learn.
damm linlin
get me an oxygen tank please please!
i swear im going to die soon lahs.
okok. not that im seriously gonna die but the headaches wil kill luhs.
the dono wad thing tt the uncle my dad asked to come is paintin some pungent thing
(something alike to glue) on my hse door.
and it stinks like &^%^$@#$$^&(*_
ir eally dono why there are people who wenta sniff glue.
hahas!YES YES!
sniff glue get high and die FAST!



okays the pungent thing aside.
(im currently like holdin a small towel over my nose but it doesnt help when the wind is blowing)
i have been procastinating to do my project since i reached home from my lunch which is so ONION!
hahas.. my dad practically ordered every dish and they had onions on them.
and i mean its like eating onion only lahs!
the amount of onion is more than the food lahs.
and i asked dad to order another plate of the same dish WITHOUT ONION and it taste better.
then then home cos sis having exams tml and i wan to have my project done.
(apparently i haven start doing it cos im blogging!)
so yaps on the computer i started thinking what do i wanna do luhs.
im seriously such a no-lifer ever since fyp started can.
and im goin to continue being a no-lifer for the nxt three months when IAP start.
i so wanna go to the beach lahs!
-have a nice tan enjoy the sea breeze from day till evening.
-i wan PINIC LAHS.
haahs.
actually there are so many things i wanna do luhs.
date me luhs people.
weekends im free !!HAHAHS
its so ironic luhs when im free on weekends nobody seems to be free for me!!!):


yes yes!SMACK THAT LINLIN
go get ur project done.!(:
just today i met three nuisances.
first at the traffic light then the second and third time is on the bus.
i totally am sick and tired of public transport luhs.
that explains why im so wanna go get a license.
i noe petrol is costly but still.. i cant wait to get my hands on those steering wheel.
yeah baby. nxt year new year i will be the one driving!!(:
prays hard.




OHYA! i swear by hook or by crook,im NOT going to go bugis on a sat.
its damm bloody PACKED lahs.
totally hate the fact tt pple is squeezing here and there.
i guess its the crowd fright i got when i was workin on weekends at LP luhs.
or i guess it must be fyp tts making me so tired and grumpy.
im so gonna join daniel to live in the rubbish bin luhs.
lets be oscar the grouch.!
grouchy grouchy but i guess i still prefer elmo luhs.





read thru my past testimonials from frenster.
i certainly miss the times spent in the past luhs.
i miss the people who came by my life throughout the past.
was talkin to serene last night over dinner.
i certainly do miss alot of things.
but somehow somethings are jus amiss.
i dono wad is it but its just lacking.
crap mans.
i wanted to type down alot but now i really forget luhs.
okok..
shall go do my proj luhs.
byeS!(:
seriously i have been gettin the i-dread-going-school kinda mood alr luhs.
i totally have no mood to go luhs.
i guess the moments i got transferred up to level 5
and no more discipline..
i will SKIP school more often lahs!
cos no attendence.
but tt doesnt mean i don do my project luhs.
in fact i tink im more attentive at home den in school.
opps.
never mind.
determined lin be determined
*constant chanting it luhs*





2 weeks more to end of fyp.
3 more weeks to ftt.(yes,i so wanna pass it at first attempt and va va vroom i go to learn driving)
4 more weeks to my birthday.(gonna be old.)
HAHS.





my bday wish.?
plain stupidity i wud say.
ahhs.CRAP.
im just tired alr!HAHAS
maybe u kind souls can start booking me.
make me feel love love love.
shower me with gift gift gifts!
words kill
words emote thy deepest feelings.
all these while being hidden beneath the dark side.
i guess its really time to stay determined
do wad i wan be happy with wad i do
2 more weeks plus to liberation.
hehes.
den off to attachment.
briefing on 21stmay i guess..
faster over luhs.
i miss studyin time.







gosh.
i kip skippin sch.
headaches are alway haunting me luhs!):
pain at the reflection

i throw in the white flag and surrender.
the feelings so deep i really cannot take it anymore.
for a moment i totally hate quitting the job.
the only job which can make me feel that im worthwhile,despite it all.
been long since i ever felt peace deep within.
the feeling of being neglected.
sometimes i do question why at one moment of life i got everything that i could ever ask.
and the next it just got swept away.
i lost the most important person who can make me feel worthwhile.
the moment that person left,all the shits flows with it.
many a time i wished to make a stand but it jus got stucked there.
the problems that i faced seems shallow to many yet it meant a great deal to me.
the tormenting hurt i faced nobody will ever be able to understand.
at times i really just wished to hide at one corner and cry my hearts out.
but it makes me wonder again..
whats the point of crying when nobody bothers.
the very first time i cried myself silly at that void deck.
does anyone even know how much pain it carries with every teras that rolled down.
the second time i really cried real deep again.
at the corner of the school. the stairways.
the echos of my cries reflects just how much i yearn for someone to really care.
the third time i cried real hard.
that night after the heated arguments the reprimandings from them.
i swear im goin to go crazy if things go on this way.
i really thinks that something is not goin right within me.
one moment i binge on food the next i chose to starve myself.
inferiority complex blends in and all i see is failures in myself.
what is really goin on in me.
don tell me every problem can be solved one by one.
if i bother to talk things out.
don tell me everything is just very simple.
when i just don understand why do i get treated this way.
it has been there since last june.
going to be a year when all the shits flow by.
tell me how to trust the fact tt problems can be solved.
i used to think this way but now i guess the moments i stop making my stand.
i gave up.
see that I GIVE UP!

after 1pm today i will have completed my first week of attachment.
one word to describe- BORING
din even noe why am i doin accounts now when im an engine student.
but wadever it is.. 11 more weeks and im off for the holiday.
but on a side note. im only workin from 9 to 5
thats not all thou.
my incharge come in to work at 945 or latest 10.
so im left to rot from 9 to 10.
and the clasic thing that she said to me was: when u reach,just on the lappie to surf the net.
im like WAD?but owell..this has been my routine for almost a week.
gotta TAHAN!!!






this years bday falls on the attachment day.
its kinda boring. and i don anticipate it anymore.
owell. its just another year im going older.
but its the darlings who make an effort to celebrate for me that makes me happy.













a year ago i tot i was the happiest girl
a year later someone was missing but i believe i wil still be that happy girl!(: