i dono how to express myself.
everything deep down is jus a turmoil of emotions.
i chose to keep quiet.
i chose to smile and laugh cos
i don wan to be sad anymore.
one day i will find my happyness!(:
5$ min. 3 pieces.
what can you say about this caption.
YES! any human beings who know how to read should noe it means :
5$ each minimun 3 pieces.
but every sunday those creautres tt come "crawlin" in to GIO jus don get the idea and questions like:
P1: 3 pieces for 5$ arhs?
where got so cheap?if it is that cheap i guess i can jus stand at the crew necks and jus replenish the crewnecks?
and the most outrageous one i heard today was.
p1: 5 pieces 3$ den 1 piece 1$ arhs?
when i hear it, im like @$&(*#&$#*$&
i feel like takin the crewnecks and slap their face.
PLEASE lahs.
brush up ur english can.
i totally ABHORE P1-s
and it sucks even more when my in-charge jus have to put me stationed at the crew necks every SUNDAY!
dammit!
but at least it keeps my mind off everything jus replenishin and folding.







goodbye and goodnight
i guess after 5mths,u finally are able to give me a reply.
thanks.
no doubt it caused tears to roll down again.
i know this time round,you gave me the closure i ever needed.
goodbye lover,hello my fren!



off to do my maths tutorials luhs!
bye
hais.
WO JIU SHI BU KAI XIN LAHS!):
im tired i really am tired.
i just don feel like tokin anymore.
maybe supressin everything down is the only way.
no way i could let out the feelings deep down.
good nights and good bye.
im leaving the bloggin world soon i guess.
it don serves a purpose anymore.
i hate the fact that my emotions get swayed thru and fro so easily.
i don like it when i cant get all the words forward.
i wanna tell you that i still love you but i know its impossible.
maybe its just that im juan lian-ing
cos i have grew attached to the rs i had with him.
but why is it that i still look forward to seeing him all the time.
why is it that hearin his voice over the fone jus melts my heart.
you snatched my fone away and maybe u saw that message someone sent me.
ur facial expression changes.
was it me who think too much or was it u really felt a tinge of jealousy by the message?
i dont know i don dare to think.
i guess im backed to the state i was in 5 mths ago.
someday i need to SERIOUSLY tell myself..
linlin its really OVER!):
hopefully the answer to the question eve posed to me was right
i don wanna think abt it anymore.
throw away all that illusions that make me go weak.
i don wann bother i don wanna think.
it jus drains me.
period.








somehow i wanna go tannin again.
but pple ard me forbades me
cos i will get darker.
but i love the sun luhs!
island life love it!(:
& u left a smile and walk away.

a question that left me speechless.
i noe not wad the answers shud be.
but i know for sure.
no matter how hard i try to give myself a closure.
memories will jus hinder my decisions.
one year to be said
aint long neither is it short.
i question myself what i really wan.
my heart says i wan you back
my mind tell me its not the same anymore
my heart and mind use to tally but now
somehow something is lacking.
if i were to have shortage when i do cashiering,
at least all i do is to recuperate the losses
but when theres smth lacking in the way i tink.
i doubt theres anyway i can mend that gap up.
a scar do get torn easily shud it not heal totally.
my paper heart has never been mended
it jus get torn apart time and again

do you tink of me jus when i tot of you
does memories hurt you as much as it hurts me?
i rather not think
i chose to slp to forget
wake up to a brand new day
5 mths..i guess i will survive(:
i woke up at 8am and dragged myself to the toilet to prepare for school.
i swear i would have jus died instantly at the moment.
i see stars for the second time of my life.
i almost blanked out luhs.
lucky the distance from my room to the toilet aint tt far away
so i quickly make my way to my bed and roll myself up like a ball.
my stomach was aching like hell, the cramps is killing.
i swear for tt instance i wished i wasnt a girl.
told huiwen i aint goin to school for today luhs.
thought of him but the pain jus drowns me and i slept once again.
woke up at 230 and felt much better but the cramps are still kiling.
am hungry for now but still waiting for mich to end school to have din din tgt and back to LP for stocktake.
boring shits i know.
* hoho. jus when i was typing this.mich called and said stock take is cancelled!!YEAHS!
but gotta go back work after sch tml..
for once i wished it was today lahs.
boring shit!
and to think im workin morning shift on wed!





as for the time being,i was like stoning and i thought of wad happened last thursday.
i saw that distinct sad face i saw 5 mths back and i felt real helpless.
i wanted to hug u real tight and tell u everything jus goin to be fine.
i wan to stand by u once again and accompany you whenever u feel lonely.
i wan to tell u im willing to spare any time to acc you whenever i could.
but the moment u left my bag on the floor i knew things just aint the same anymore.
i still rmb wad u once said:its too late now, if only you were that understandin in the past.
this phrase always haunts me and create an acute pain in my heart everytime i thought of it.
i have hurt you once and i have hurt u twice this time.
all you wan is someone to acc you thru the break but i failed to do so.
not that i don wan is i dono how to face you.
the more i see you the more i wan you back.
i know i should be in ur shoes to understand how lonesome u will be
but i guess this time i must be selfish
to tink of myself already.
i guess you wont even realise for the past 5 mths,i have always put myself in ur shoes
tts why i stop contactin you cos im afraid i might caused you to tink of the bad past i caused you to have.
im sorry but i still love you.
but im just moving on cos i noe i no longer can cling onto you.
hais.





first time when i almost fainted due to cramps and i told u.
me: u noe got once i almost fainted in the j8 toilet when i had my period.
him:why din you tell me ,i would have came to find u.
me:cos tt time was during our breakup period.
this time round i almost fainted.
the first thought was you but when i was abt to text you.
the pain from my cramps woke me.
i have already broken up with you.
theres no reason i shud seek comfort from you anymore.
twice i failed to sought comfort from you when i almost fainted but twice ur image ring a bell in my mind.


&the last foto we took










seriously i tink im sick of havin headaches almost every single day.
everyday is either work or school or out with frens or home to sleep.
im drained of all my energy luhs.
all i know now is im tired.
T.T




an hour ago, i tot i almost lost my wallet.
i almost drop dead at the instance when i tot i lost it.
not that its expensive but its my asset.
without it ,i tink i can jus go and eat air luhs.
no more moolahs for me.
not jus that.
there are more than moolahs in the wallet luhs.
photos,neoprints,10$ heart,and the one and only amulet.
and not to mention tons of RECEIPTS!
called back shop nobody picked up and i almost cried in the middle of chomp chomp
daddy rejected to help me and hanged up my fone.
felt darn helpless til mich answered the call and assured me of the findin of my wallet!














first i saw smth which make my heart sank den i saw smth that makes me disappointed.
time and again.my trust gt betrayed.
don blame me when i choose not to trust anymore.
its hard to trust with an open heart now its harder to trust with a broken heart.
i do bite at times u noe or rather most of the time.
i see thru things faster than anyone can ever grasps.
all becos i tink alot.
and it sucks!):


im off to do my literature search for my proj and my maths luhs):
im deprived of slp.





oh fuck!
i found out smth i long to look for.
look at how i exclaimed!
you should noe how demoralised i was.
i cant take this mans!
seriously!

i dono how to express myself.
everything deep down is jus a turmoil of emotions.
i chose to keep quiet.
i chose to smile and laugh cos
i don wan to be sad anymore.
one day i will find my happyness!(: